Now it's time to choose. I have to choose direction of my way.
I thought that Foundation course in general will help me with my decision. But! after 2 months, after 4 subjects i still don't know what to choose. Therefore i decided to attend all area presentations. Unfortunately this confused me at all. Every presentation was exiting, thrilling! In every area there are advantages and something specially interesting for me. So i'll try to explain my expressions below.
VisCom. This discipline was the first and the most complicated to me. Everything seemed to be so strange,so unusual! First two weeks were the hardest. But after some time i realized that i thought about visual commutation more and more. The most interesting thing here is links, connections between pictures, images and words. Play with words, play with images, play with ideas - it's all about viscom. In addition i really like art cartoons. I was so impressed by the animations from the lecture and also Jeff Scher and Run Wrake, especially 'Rabbit'. I so regret now that i didn't try to do some animations earlier.
3D. This area is attractive to me on the score of hand work, experimentation with different materials, creation dimension and volume. A lot of drawings is good reason too. Actually architecture, buildings, shadows and roofs are so amazing! As well i'm greatly interested in jewelry design, especially stones and metals and enamel. I'm really enjoyed of making little pieces of art for every day using. But i don't want to make just stuff. And sometimes it's really dull and boring to multiply and multiply again and again. Although i understand that this process lead to creation new unexpected forms and structures.
Fashion and Textiles. This is separate theme. I like fashion. I like clothes and everything which connect with fashion. Different fabrics, shapes and colors! Silk and wool, print and knit, combination, experimentation. It seems to be very simply choice-just choose fashion. But it is not so easily. Choosing fashion means creating not just simple clothes, but great, magnificent, haute couture clothes, fabric masterpieces.
Fine Art. I thought that this area is what i really want before course started. Drawing, painting!! This was my desire, about this i wrote in my supplement letter. In reality fine art turned out absolutely different from what i expected. The most difficult thing was to be left only with yourself, your imagination, your fears,your sorrows, your hopes, your dreams. I told yours? I meant mine. Mine fear of white sheet. Mine fear of tubes full of acrylic. Mine fright of brushes and unsteady line, wrong shape and incorrect color mix. I felt like in closed box. So awful understand it, but can't do anything to solve it. I absolutely did not expect so trick from my favorite subject. But i still trust that something can change later…
Finally i did not decide - fine art or design. I can say only that in my work i need brief, but only as a starting point. Also i'd prefer creating problems than solving them…
Now i really hope for your tutor help and strong safe hand. Do not break my hopes.
Fortunately Daiana helped me a lot, presenting me an idea how to make this wooden stuff keep balance and be a little useful.
On crit i discovered that almost everybody made something interesting, inventive,unusual. And my thing was so boring and ordinary. And ugly after all.
But only one tutor's advice completely changed everything. Just another position-and now i like my stuff much more! Actually it was less than advice-just suggestion to use. The supposition that i was not dare to realise.
